Jowita Bydlowska

An intelligent person would remember that the soothing inner hug of the wanting being satisfied is brief

There’s an expression in AA, “to white-knuckle,” which means not drinking but not going to meetings either. It implies a struggle: clenching your fists so tightly as you’re trying to hang on to your sobriety that your bones shine through your skin

. I am the opposite of a ghost. My body is here but my spirit is gone