Drunk Mom

. I am the opposite of a ghost. My body is here but my spirit is gone

There’s an expression in AA, “to white-knuckle,” which means not drinking but not going to meetings either. It implies a struggle: clenching your fists so tightly as you’re trying to hang on to your sobriety that your bones shine through your skin

An intelligent person would remember that the soothing inner hug of the wanting being satisfied is brief